Change

Today marks change. Today I’m going to start practicing healthy methods in improving my life, and becoming a better person. Yes I’ll still be sad about losing my love, but I will not dwell on it every second, and only post about him. There will still be poems or posts if something really hits me, but now is the beginning of focusing on me.

I have so much love inside of me, and I wanna let that shine instead of all the sass, anger, and pettiness. Tomorrow I go back to therapy and begin the process of dissecting my past, present, and future. With her help I hope to gain new insight on how to manage my issues, grow away from them, and grow towards a better happier life.

Wish me luck on this journey, and I hope I come out of it in 3 months, or 6 months, or a year, like a nicer more calm Evan. I’m not saying I’ll be fully healed in 3 or 6 months, because this is obviously a lifelong goal of bettering myself. However, I want to see a lot of change, and growth, in terms of my most toxic traits. My main goal right now is learn and succeed in managing my anxiety, anger, jealousy, and control problems; because those are the most detrimental to the people around me.

I will update this blog after ever therapy session as a log for my progress. I’m excited for this path of growth, and i hope it might inspire some of you guys to tackle things in your life as well.

Sincerely, Evan.